Better to do a little well, then a lot not.

Ok, so I just butchered a sentence, but you get the point, don't you?

Lately I'm finding myself so overwhelmed with possibilities of things to do...that I wind up sitting back, staring at the pool and doing - nothing. It reminds me of my grandfather's warnings to me as a child not to spread myself too thin. First it was with friendships:

"Cheryl - you can't be everything to everyone. Take good care of yourself first, and take good care of your time."

Then it was with school:

"Cheryl, follow your heart, and do what it is you most want to do."

Then it was with life:

"Cheryl, there's only so much you can get done in a day. Make each day count and don't spoil it by filling it to the brim. Leave some room in the glass."

Always off in a hurry from one thing to the next, like a hummingbird in search of nectar. Flitting about doesn't suit me, trying to be everywhere at once, trying too move in each direction I am pulled in. It makes me crabby, anxious and I rarely enjoy whatever I set out to do because it begins to feel more like a chore then life's pursuit of happiness.

On a side note...did you ever do the Interactive Johari and Nohari exercises?  Whew...what a ride. It bascially invites your circle of friends/associates to note the positives and negatives of your personality as they see them. And let me tell you...the experience is very interesting. I noticed someone recently posted on my negatives, and really....really slammed me. For most of the respondents, I could heartily agree with their assessments. I know what my challenges are - so most did not come as a shock to me...but I read the last entry, and my jaw hit the floor:

anonymous thinks: unreliable, unhappy, irresponsible, insecure, foolish.

Now I'll tell ya...I agreed with most...I can even swallow foolish *gulp*. But unreliable and irresponsible? I've been called many things...never those. Ouch.