You think I'd be used to this by now.

Vertigo

Photo comment: I'd like to say that that photo is not at all a representation of what vertigo feels like. They need a photo of a child spinning around and around for three minutes, then coming to a halt. THAT, is what vertigo feels/looks like.

I'm making a note of it, since I seem to always want to forget that April/May are my danger months in Austin.

Ever since I moved here in 2005, April and May have been dizzy months. Usually a bad spell for about a week or two...and then lingering effects hanging around until June. I've become adjusted to the vertigo, but I still have to talk myself out of a panic attack every time I feel a spin coming on.

It's disruptive to say the least. At the pottery studio, I had to stumble into the Director's office to find a seat and some privacy until the studio stopped whirling in front of my eyes and I could ease back the cold sweats, nausea and trembles that quickly follow.

I'm considering doing acupuncture to see if I'll get any relief from the vertigo, and the underlying sinus issues that always seem to prompt it. I've tried everything under the allergy sun, and while they help to eliminate the stuffy nose and sinus headaches, they've failed to come up with the magic elixir to quell that and the peripheral vertigo that always seems just an awkward head tilt or swivel away.

Perhaps I should check into panic acupuncture as well. Seems like I'm getting a lot of practice with those symptoms, as I ever prepare to hit the deck and hold onto the floor for dear life.

As my head swims through this final month of pinwheels, lightheaded fogginess and cold sweats everytime I stand up too fast...I wonder again why for me so many themes in my life relate to balance, and the havoc caused by a lack thereof.