3 posts tagged “pottery class”
First impressions are tough on those who have a thick skin covering a tender heart. The immediate assumption is that those types are a little mean, or a bit unapproachable because they are more inclined to speak out when there's something going wrong, rather than to smile and make small talk about any old thing. I can relate.
The owner of the studio where I am learning wheel throwing is one of those types. I sensed that on my very first day of class. My instructor mentioned her by name as she walked through glass paned french doors. A reverence floated over the room and everyone seemed to sit a little higher on their stools, offering her a friendly wave or cautious good morning. She brushed by us with her greetings and disappeared into her office.
I knew at that moment I was really going to like her. She reminded me of the nuns I grew up with in parochial school. No frills, no fluff and no great adornments. A wealth of knowledge behind a restrained visage. I felt right at home.
There were whispers about things you didn't do when "K" was about. Clean up after yourself, I was warned. Never forget to turn off your wheel when you're done, I was advised. Funny that all the things they were warning me not to forget, were also posted clearly on the walls and on the memo board. I wondered if their need to whisper reminders indicated that I was learning with a crew of people who didn't care much for rules. I put that aside and focused on class.
"K" would greet me independently only if I was standing in the way of something she needed access to. I've learned over the years, not to push myself on stern sorts. I try to remember how it feels to me when someone just bounds into my space uninvited. I try to remember the times that unexpected intrusions have left others with a not so fond impression of me. I know not to take such disdain personally. Still, I watched her each time I was in the studio. Managing her affairs, advising a student over their shoulder as she passed. I wanted to scale that wall she had carefully built so I could get to the learning on the other side. I decided to wait for the opportunity to come to me, instead of trying to craft it awkwardly. I'm so glad I did.
This past Sunday, we were given a lesson in the art of glazing by "K." The first lesson she's taught to our class. More a science then I originally thought, understanding oxides and firing temperatures and the correct ways to achieve brilliant or muted colors. I am the only beginner in the class, so this refresher lesson was my first and I tried my best to shield the fact that I was hopelessly overwhelmed. "K" honed in on that attempt immediately. For each technique she demonstrated, she would ask for an assistant. Guess who that assistant was? She asked me for my name again, and I knew this time, she would remember it.
"K" made a point in this class of telling us all that she's not the "Queen B" she seems. Well, in some respects yes. She's strong willed and likes her studio run a very specific way. It's her studio and that's her right. But she also expressed the desire to know what we were thinking, and encouraged us to reach out to her. I heard murmurs of hurt feelings towards the back of the room, remembrances of chastisements and quiet admonishments that left people with sore feelings. I chuckled to myself. The things that should hurt my feelings, rarely do. I prefer to extract my hurts from far stranger events then moments of correction or commitments I've failed to keep. I'm hungry for the right way to do something, if there is such a thing. Doesn't mean I'll always follow it, but I always want to know.
While cleaning up from a demonstration she apologized if her manner was stern. Along with her disposition she has a wicked sense of humor, so I wasn't sure if the apology was offered in jest. I told her of my catholic school upbringing, and I saw the light bulb go off behind her eyes.
"I knew there was something. Are you still Catholic?"
I replied that I never was, but that some of my fondest memories were of tough, snarky nuns with hearts of gold that told you exactly what was on their minds and expected you to be sturdy enough to take it. There was something warm and familiar in that for both of us. She smiled, the warmest smile and in that mere two seconds of grin, I knew the ice was officially broken. After the formal lesson was over, she spent some one on one time with me, teaching me the finer points as I gingerly went about my first glazing projects. She mentioned that she knew she wouldn't have to worry about me in the studio, that I was conscientious. She reviewed the pieces I've thrown thus far and complimented my progress is such a short period of time. But the two comments that left me floating on air came towards the end of class.
"Are you signing up for the next session?"
I finished clearing away my tools and folded my apron. I gave her an emphatic yes and told her how much I felt at home in that place.
"I'm happy to hear that. You're soaking this stuff up like a sponge, I'm impressed. I was watching you select your glazes and the color combinations you chose. You are a natural potter. Natural potters always gravitate towards the earth tones, the browns, the greens. They are the ones this stuff just comes naturally to, they have a real respect for this craft. Don't hesitate to come get me, if you have any questions, alright?"
Natural potter? I have no idea why that coming from her felt like God just kissed me on the forehead. But it did. Perhaps I am drawn to that sort of validation like a moth to flame, but she'll never know what that meant to me. When I left that Sunday afternoon, and peeked into her office to say goodbye, she gave me a smile, wished me a good week and addressed me by my name.
Ice, broken.
Interesting life talk popped up in pottery class this afternoon while I was trimming and etching. Such philosophical conversations occur in that studio. I think I love that as much as the hobby. Today we got to talking about that tried and true concept of "letting go." So much easier said than done...even more difficult when no one ever gives you a blueprint as to how to make that happen.
We likened it to individual events going on in people's lives:
- A love affair that's lost.
- A loved one sitting somewhere between life and death.
- A parent letting a child spread their own wings.
- A worry about an unforeseen event that you do not control.
- A past hurt that's shaped your perception of who you are, what you can do and where you can go.
Someone, in a moment of scripted insight said, "You just have to let it go." And in a moment of hilarious exclamation another potter says..."What the *filth* does that really mean, anyway?"
Depending on your personal inclination, you can undershoot it or completely bash it to death. Guess which one I've been more inclined towards? Well...actually, both. A dance of extremes. A true pendulum. When I've swung to the right, I've gone all Queen of Hearts. Off with your head, Bitches. When I realize the severity of that extreme, my urge is to swing immediately in the opposite direction, as far left as I can get. Moral of the story is...extremes rarely provide comfort, clarity or insight. Extremes cause trauma. Don't linger too long on either side.
"Let it go."
After hearing the ensuing debate about what letting go is (and isn't), I decided to Google it. Why not? I Google every damned thing else. I found some pretty insightful interpretations mixed in with idiotic, oversimplified Dr. Phil-isms. The best definition of letting go (to date) was this:
Letting go means allowing things to exist as if they were in the palm of your hand. Taken from, "The Art of Letting Go" found at: PositiveHealth.com
Not clutching, but not chucking that thing at a brick wall either. It's merely...acceptance. Letting it rest, untouched. Unhampered, unmolested by you and whatever pesky baggage "beliefs" you're lugging.
I think so many of us hear, "chop off a limb you've come to depend on," when we hear the words let go. We equate it with immense grief. Loss. Saying goodbye to something. The removal of this "thing" we desperately want to preserve. Problem is, the "thing" letting go suggests we release isn't the "thing" we're obsessing over having to lose. And naturally, when threatened with loss, we cling for safe keeping. And...in the process....we 're putting a bunch of energy into the wrong...well... thing.
Perhaps letting go can be a bit easier if you think of it as that ball in the palm of your hand. It's not leaving you, you're not leaving it. You're simply allowing it to be, without your manipulation. It's a commitment to put your precious energy elsewhere. It is ACCEPTANCE. Of whatever is currently going on in your world without swinging too wildly in one direction or the other over it.
What's the alternative?
You can opt to go mad and beat yourself senseless with the stick of delusion. That's always a choice too. But I hear it leaves one helluva mark.
Dashing in for a quick post. I had all intentions on writing some long meandering something about zen and pots and clay and such. An early morning call from a neighbor with car issues, sudden inspiration on the ending of a the novel I call myself working on, a call from Dad (a small lego wall) and a few work requests have all put in a dent in that plan.
So in lieu of said zen post, I offer you this.
Pottery class this Sunday was awesome, I stayed an additional hour after class to practice, wished I could have remained all day. There is something so ridiculously peaceful and meditative about it. I'm the only beginner in my class, so sometimes I get impatient to do the things I see my awesome classmates doing - but all things in time, right? Instructor says I'm moving along pretty quickly, and she's pretty pleased with my work. I promised I would snap a few photos and share them with you, and here they are. The two bowls I created on Sunday, still wet and restings on their bats.
They won't be glazed or fired for several weeks yet. They still need trimming and smoothing, and I'll have to wait for them to dry first to start that. Next week I'm going to start working on cups. I love this more than I could possibly convey in this short-ish post. It's birthing all sorts of dreams and new roads to consider. (I got big dreams!!!! Dreams I tell ya!) But more on that much later. For now...bring on the learnin'.
